I was on a jury! I couldn’t believe it. The first time I served jury duty and the stupid random name generator at the courthouse picked my name. I was juror #1. What were the chances.
I wasn’t allowed to talk about the case during the trial. And I wish I had created this blog before we came up with a verdict so I could then post my thought process throughout the trial, but I guess retrospect will have to do.
It was an Attempted Murder Trial. Yes, it was very intense. I really do believe my life has changed because of this trial. I am not trying to be overly dramatic, I am just trying to tell you the truth. I know it’s a jury of 12 people, and I didn’t make this decision by myself, but I was one of the twelve people that had to determine the fate of a young man, and to determine if he should go to prison (probably for a very long time) because he tried to kill someone. Because it happened close to where I live, and involved young people around my age, it really hit home for me. It made me feel lucky that I didn’t suffer from anything traumatic in my childhood.
Oh! There’s so much to say about this trial. Even the jury selection process bewildered me. I met some incredibly interesting people. People I would never interact with just because my current world is filled with people I meet in college, people I meet from work, family, etc. I don’t like to limit myself to “circles”, but my lifestyle doesn’t really put me in contact with people who don’t share common interests. So these jurors fascinated me. My closest friend (mind you, it was a long trial), was a mom of a 9 year old girl. The jury developed cliques, and I’m not sure why, but people didn’t accept her (or at least people treated her like an outcast). I happened to really like her. I thought she was very sweet and genuine. She lost her fiance 10 years ago because he was murdered by a close range gunshot. Her daughter was the victim of severe bullying and it became so unbearable, she even shaved off her eyebrows. Another juror was a psychologist who has worked with kids from schools that have suffered through school shootings. A potential juror was just on trial herself, because her husband had an incident involving road rage, pulling over, getting into a fist fight with the other driver, the other driver’s wife pulled out a gun and pointed it at the two men fighting, and the potential juror pulled out her own gun and pointed it at the other woman with the gun. Talk about drama! There were 4 jurors who had previous DUI’s. Mind you, I had nothing in common with these people. Only that we were randomly picked to serve on this jury. It was a very interesting experience. Unforgettable.
Perception! Throughout this trial, I wanted to throw things at the Defense Attorney. I was not impressed by his performance. I thought he was incompetent and I cringed every time it was his time to speak. We weren’t allowed to talk to the other jurors about the trial before deliberation, so I went along thinking this guy was stupid and assuming everyone in the room agreed with me. To my amazement, during jury deliberations, one juror praised the defense attorney. He called him “Amazing” and said “If I was ever in trouble, I’d definitely want him to defend me.” He was not being sarcastic. He really believed the defense attorney was the best, and I couldn’t believe how different our analyses were! I also thought, “Oh gosh, these deliberations are going to last forever, and aren’t going to be easy… at all.”
At the end of the trial, as I was walking out, the defendant’s dad came up to me and very quietly said “Thank you.” I’m not sure how to take that, but I know I will never forget that moment. It just stands out.